Wednesday, January 17, 2018

Ode to My 13 Years (Turning 14) of Unrequited Love

This is the story of how the song “Linger” became one of my obsessions.

Originally, the song was about Dolores O’Riordan’s first serious kiss, a song of regret and her falling in love with a soldier.



I liked the song a lot. And then I met my bestfriend in the summer of 2003. I started falling for him since then and eventually realized that I was already in deep shit in love with him the following year. And the rest is history.

The lyrics of the song suddenly had a different meaning. And the music was like enveloping every aspect of my being. Every word was impressed upon my heart, that sometimes when I listened to it, driven by teenage hormones, I would cry a lot and sometimes bang my head on the wall because I felt so stupid and I was deeply in love with a straight guy.

Linger was the song that best described how I felt back then, and even now.

“But I’m in so deep. You know I’m such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger,
Do you have to let it linger?”

Like Dolores, I fell in love with some guy, not even the most handsome or the most fascinating, but for some reason I love him, and I regret it so much.


This M.U. (mag-isang umiibig) status is already more than a decade but I still can’t get over my bestfriend. That’s what love is for me- suffering in silence. I believe that this is one of the main reasons that are holding me back from having a real relationship. It’s really stupid. As in THAT THING CALLED TANGA NA. Tangina talaga. 

2 comments:

  1. Nabroke din ang heart ko dito sa news about her. Haizt! Gustong gusto ko na kinakanta nya ang dreams

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  2. Laban lang! Darating at darating din si Mr. Right sa buhay mo. Hindi man ngayon, o bukas, pero balang araw. LAKAS MAKA NANAY NG COMMENT KO! HAHAHA!

    Ako naman ang bilis kong ma attach mga taong alam ko namang hindi pwede. Self-inflected pain kumbaga! Mag da-drama! May pa break up playlist pa. Yung tipong, nag mo-move on ako kahit wala namang kami. It only goes to show how love can change us. Sabi nga sa kanta ni Bo Burnham-

    "We all deserve love. Even on the days when we aren't our best.
    'Coz we all suck but love can make us suck less. We all deserve love. It's the very best part of being alive."

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